farewell loreen...

It's been a while since my first entry but I think I'm going to start blogging on a more regular basis. Sometimes I have a lot on my mind that I want to capture in writing, but often am too lazy to put pen to paper. Typing always seems easier... but as I mentioned in my first blog, time is a luxury to me, and so is being able to do this at home!
Anyway, today has been a quietly emotional day for me. Quiet because no one knows my thoughts. Emotional because one of my best friends has just moved (or will be in an hour or so) to London. It shouldn't be such a big deal because I live in Sydney and my friend lives in Perth, but somehow having her in another continent is putting a real space between us.

She's been one of my truest friends and will always remain that way. Though younger than me, she has maturity beyond her years and always pulled me back in line. As my flatmate for about 2 years, she supported me through my best and worst times... and believe me, times got baaaaad.... We laughed and cried and spent many valuable quiet hours together. I want to tell her how much I appreciate her. I hope she knows it.

It's also made me think of my best, best, best friend, who also lives in Perth. I haven't seen him for almost 2 years since I moved from Perth to Sydney. I miss him terribly and he knows it. We'll make an effort to meet up in 2005!

I often think about friends, because a lot of people have come & gone.. and only a couple stay my close friends. I'm often trusting and as a result have been burned by so called friends in the past. It makes me appreciate and love my true friends more, and as I grow older I realise I don't need all these people who come and go. All I need are my friends. These days I don't care what people say or what people think. Those who are important to me matter and that's all. I think it is all part of growing up - of needing to belong, until you are comfortable in your own skin. I think I'm almost there.

Anyway today might also be more emotional than usual because I'm sick, and at home on a Friday night while all my friends are out celebrating a 30th birthday! I went to dinner but am now home in my pyjamas... ready for bed. I have a bad virus so what ever you do, please don't come near me.